NaNoWriM0 2k16 Update #2: Change

Sitting at 8,286 words on day #8 of NaNoWriMo when I should be at 13,333 words…I’m not feeling too great about myself. I tried all I could to get myself going to write more and mgiphy7ore of Aerials, but found myself just angry with myself for jumping into such a random story idea with a genre I wasn’t comfortable with. I thought I could push myself to finish this novel. I thought I could try out and test the waters of a genre I’ve never written before. The more negative I feel about all of this, the more angrier I get with myself, and that’s not something I’d like to feel for the rest of this month. I don’t wanna make myself stressed over something that’s not important to me nor my life. You get what I’m saying?

So here it comes: change.

Yes, change. As in change-in-my-NaNoWriMo-subject, and change-in-my-novel-for-NaNoWriMo.

After having a crazy, random dream last night, a friend gave me the idea of flash fiction. So scrapping Aerials, I’m going to be doing a Flash Fiction series for all of my crazy dreams and my plot ideas. It might not all be just flash fiction. Some of it will be 2k+ word scenes and whatnot.

Will this get me to 50k words? Probably not. But it’s what I know I can write without a problem, it’s what I’m comfortable with. And most importantly, it’s something I’ve been thinking about doing for months (but haven’t realized until today). I have a blank notebook with my name on it on my bookshelf.

I know I can do this.

Now I’m just going to leave this gif here because it’s how I feel.

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NaNoWriMo 2k16 Update #1: 4AM Negativity

I just spent the last few hours tossing and turning just when I thought I was tired enough to sleep, I found myself plagued with thinking about…you guessed it. Hecking NaNoWriMo. What a shocker, I know. And while most other people around thgiphy5e world are all excited about being able to write next, (day)dreaming about their characters and what not, I have a different feeling.

After a night of getting myself 500 words ahead of scheduled (I mean, it’s nothing oh-em-gee, but it’s 500 words more than my usual daily goal), I found myself getting into bed and thinking something rather sour towards NaNoWriMo.

“That writing session…wasn’t exciting.”

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“In fact, none of my writing sessions have been exciting…”

And now here I sit, typing up this post, and I can’t help but wonder, is there something wrong with me? Have I lost my true passion for writing? Because in all honesty, I think I’d have more pleasure in finishing the novel I didn’t finish last year (which was the second draft for my 2014 winner).

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Aerials (cover created by Mellanie Young from nanowrimo.org) is a steampunk romance where this character named Joule is the head mechanic on a skyship called Kairos. She’s best friends with the captain, Oswald Rith, and has been ever since his father had taken Joule and her younger sister Isoline in. After securing new machines for the ship after months of trying to keep the old ones from ruining the ship, shit goes down and Joule and Isoline have to escape the ship before Joule gets blamed for something she would never ever think of doing. A mysterious family takes them in, their son Edric falls in love with Joule, and eventually Joule and Isoline find out they’re not exactly orphans, that a family member is still alive and has strategically kept an eye on them ever since they were given away. Isoline gets kidnapped, Joule finds out what true love feels like, and a mystery villain is behind a massive amount of unhappy events, and the family member comes to save the day…

Yeah, I have the entire plot planned out, outlined. Created the characters and got to know them. It was all sunshine and chocolate until I realized tonight it was all, in fact, just a bag of poop. I’ve tried to get to know the characters. I tried to bond with them, get excited for them. But they’rgiphy4e not Addison and Drew (characters from past novel). I’m not excited for the ensued sexual tension. I’m not jumping for joy for two characters I totally ship being in the same breathing distance. Because it’s not said past novel.

I went from first being horrified at realizing how much I regretted the decision of trying to try something new to being head to toe with regret, to now just feeling impatient for NaNoWriMo to end. All I can think about right now is how much I just want to get the novel done and over with.

Now, to make things clear, this doesn’t mean I’m going to give up on the novel and on giphy6NaNoWriMo. No, this means something a lot of authors frown upon. I’m going to poop out this novel without a single care (and ounce of passion, from what it seems) because I refuse to think about wasting my entire October planning a novel just to give up on it.

I refuse to give up.

A part of me hopes that somewhere among the writing I’ll finally click with the story. Maybe I’m just tired and need a yummy cup of coffee to get my passion flowing again. Maybe I’m just hungry. Who knows.

I think I’ve been so worried about my past novel Forgiven for the longest time that I’m having trouble learning to worry about anything else that’s not Forgiven.

Writing is hard…

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NaNoWriMo has begun!

4AM into NaNoWriMo for me and I’m filled with so much mighty need for writing. Are you all feeling the same way as me? (Well, I mean, the few of you who are still just as awake at this time as I am, anyway…)

Lots of new changes this year have been undergone such as a NaNoWriMo Bullet Jogiphyurnal, full-on month-long planning for the very first time in my life, and now I have decided to use my Google Drive for writing as opposed to a notebook. I have a feeling this month will consist a lot of coffee when possible. Last year I was good about it, not too sure about this year…

NaNoWriMo didn’t start off as I had hoped. I spent the first four hours of it pretty much juggling to update my Bullet Journal, and write up my wordcount tracker I almost forgot for my NaNoWriMo Bullet Journal. And then right when I was about to crack my knuckles, my upper back gives me a hard time and I have to lay down and…ugh.

I’m not letting that stop me, however. I’m very determined to get the first part of the first chapter written. I feel like I’ve been waiting for forever just to sit down and finally write out the opening scene that has been dancing around my head since the beginning of October.giphy1

I’m prepared to go batshit crazy on on my laptop. During the final moments of planning for my new novel, I had, of course, run into some plot issues, but now that NaNo has begun, I’m going to push through it and whether it’s fixed or not when I actually write it out — who the hell cares. All that matters is that I poop out those words and worry about the editing after the 30th.

A part of me wants to puke out an all-nighter and write as much as I possibly can, but the other part of me knows that I’ll just burn myself out. I have self-control!

Somehow I’ve only just discovered Night of Writing Dangerously and it has been officially added to my bucket list. It would be nice to go out and attend it one year. Hell, it would be nice to attend any write-in at this point, but thanks to personal reasons, I’m unable to this year. I’m hopeful for next year though! (And besides, it would be nice to go to the Night of Writing Dangerously with a writing friend but alas, I don’t have a friend who’s as much of a writer as I am when it comes to the subject of NaNoWriMo.)

So I want to wish you all good luck on reaching your goal, now wish me good luck as I go try and write some words before bed.

Camp NaNoWriMo: Part 2 Update & Bullet Journal Stuff

The first part of Camp National Novel Writing Month had been a great success for me with finishing the first part of my novel within the limit of 25,000 words I had given myself. Now more than halfway through Part 2, it’s safe to say that I’ve failed at my new goal of 20,000 words, and I’m okay with that. Does that mean I won’t finish my 2.2 Draft of Forgiven? Noperdoodles! It means I’m just taking a little break. We writers need that every now and then. (I sure as hell needed it after NaNoWriMo ’14…)

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